I always knew, beyond the trapping of this shell…
That the stories He would unveil would be to story I would tell.
The pain inside of me crept over my mind.
Sucking life from my brains and illuminating pain.
No one could tell me any different, I was unloved and not loveable.
But behind closed doors and behind the facets of time inside my mind I traveled beyond the universe. I traveled beyond myself. I traveled into the marvelous wonder of the King of every Universe. I stood in His hand and saw the nothingness beyond. Knowing only HE could keep me there and only HE was God.
God outside of everything, but God inside of me. It’s in my greatest weakness… that He strengthens me.
When I sat back down and cried inside my hands… He told me He would always be … He will always be there.
He showed me He’s above all things, He holds life on His breath. He said I will breathe life into you, every single step.
That night I wept. I wept and I wept as the pain of the world pricked my heart within me. I wept. Jesus wept. We wept for this world. For the world inside of me and the world outside of me.
So much pain, would it change ?
All the pain in the World seemed to crash on my parade…. when mom and dad ignored me… a part of me was dead.
I always searched for mommy and I know I found my dad … but the little orphan lost girl ….. she stood up when he said….
You are beautiful
You are loved
You are precious cherished love
You are chosen
Not forgotten
He said, He said to me… I smile when you walk into the room.
Please stop trying and working and searching… I’m right here holding your hand. I’ve got you, relax. You could never earn my love. Just chill, I’ll reveal … everything you need to know.
But logic and knowledge took precedence and I thought I had the answers…. I made my plans and asked Him to bless them. He said “I’ll work them out for your good”.
My daddy God He rescued me. My daddy God He healed me. My daddy God He never ever left me.
Through all the pain of my family. Through all the pain of my user friends, through all the pain that’s chasing me…
My Holy Lord He rescued me.
He broke every chain that hindered me. Spoke to my soul and delivered me.
He received my heart and gave me a new one…
And now I see more clearly.
Found your site through your twitter page. This was a wonderful, poetic style post. It spoke to the child in me, and I sobbed for so many different reasons. Just wanted to share how much it touched my heart. Congratulations on your new blog. I didn’t see a contact page . Would love to subscribe once you get up and going. Blessings to you as you continue your journey.
Kari,
Thank you so much for your response. I’m thankful that this poem touched your heart. My husband has been encouraging me to share my writing through this page. Your comment is very encouraging to continue to share my writing, old and new. I will check out your page as well and hopefully chat again sometime.
Blessings to you beautiful soul
Christena
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